After all the pains and heartaches that we encounter and suffered, we thought that there will never be a happy ending for us. We keep the bad memories into our hearts and minds, trying to remember it when we are starting to find someone, so then we never give ourselves a chance to fall again as we are reminiscing the past.

We are afraid that it will happen again, it will cause us more heartaches, memories just keep on coming like a ghost of our life.

We never give a better thought of that, never knowing that the past and bad memories are the one that can heal our broken heart and shatered dreams. Keep remembering them, but not to get us hurt again, but to make us strong and fight for what is really meant for us.

All has a chance to love and be love, to make us happy and to build our dreams again. All has bad and good memories, but it will be up to us on how memories can help us rebuild our life and future.

Be strong, believe in yourself, never give up, and most of all ”DON’T BE AFRAID TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN”.

Just like what this song is telling us:

One Last Cry
My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry
Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I’m down to my last cry
Cry……
I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry
Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on…..
I’m gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry
Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down…
To my last cry…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sz-NhGanOAE

“Relationships with Filipina helpers are more common than realized. When I lived in Hong Kong, we had a 27 year old lovely girl living with us. Although I was always a gentleman, I caught myself enjoying seeing her in the house because she was very attractive.

Shortly after my family left for home leave for the summer, I realize she was looking at my pornography in my bedroom. We were always friendly and I teased her that she could have permission to borrow it when she wanted. Once that barrier was crossed the inevitable happened. She admitted being so horny and would just be happy to have a physical relationship with me. Within two days she was in my bed having incredible success … filipinas have to bet the best lovers in the world.

She was very discrete about our relationship and never exposed me to anyone. She pointed out four other homes on our street where the helper was sleeping with the boss. I think having sexually frustrated young single women in a home with a married man is just asking for the inevitable. The wives have no idea of the temptations that develop as these women have very little other options for sex.

This went on for a year despite my repeated attempts to bring it to a halt. I felt guilty being her boss and about the deception around my family and of course she started developing feelings even though she promised she would not. Fear of pregnancy was constant as she constantly begged for sex without a condom … I would never relent. The lure of the amazing sex would always draw me back. Finally she make some off hand comments that made my wife suspicious … I was confronted and confess. Needless to say turmoil erupted as she was kicked out of the house and it took her a year to get her life righted as I also had to work on my marriage. I always felt guilty that she suffered from this as she was a friend and lover. Our replacement helper was 53 years old and as nearly as wide as she was tall.

And now my mind is permanently wired to be attracted to filipina women!”

Men and women tend to be attracted and tempted to do such things especially if they very far from the family and partners in life, they may not admit it, of course, but it’s still there and still happening. They are just longing for some attention and love.

Many foreign men wanting to have Filipina wifes, why? Because Filipinas are sweet, caring, loving, family oriented, and hardworker, if you respect and give them love, they will give you back more.

Have you ever felt that there is something missing in your relationship?

You have family that loves you, you have work that provides everything you need to survive, you have friends that can be there for you when you need them, except if they are busy, you have boyfriend girlfriend or husband/wife that adores you, if they adores you.

If they adores you? What does it mean? Yah, you have boyfriend/husband, girlfriend/wife but do you feel that they love you or even have just a little feelings for you not just the word ‘I Like You’.

Yah, you are being praised when you did something really good that he/she likes, but what do you feel when you are being compared to somebody else that has been in his/her life?

Does it feel like a sharp dagger that struck into your chest?

You are happy being with him/her and can be with him/her for the rest of your life, but does he/she feel the same?

You accept him/her as what he/she is, everything that connects in his/her life, but do you feel that you are still being ignored, set aside?

There is a line that maybe adapted in this situation, ‘I was never your partner, I’m just your wife/husband’. Does it applies in your life?

Have you figured out what is missing?

Respect. Acceptance. Love. Feelings.

Hello everybody, as I’ve told you all the other day, I will talk about the movie This Is It by Michael Jackson. Yah, we’ve seen the movie and luckily the people are not too crowded.

Well, the film was taken when Michael and his crew was rehersing on his concert. The film was intentionally taken by one of his crew, to be given as a gift for Michael for the memory of thier rehersal, well now the film is very usefull for us remembering the memory of Michael.

It starts with the audition for his back up dancers, lots of boys and girls dancers auditioned, but only few had luckily choosen, well they are great dancers. Then the time when he came where the concert well be held and prepare the concert ground.

In the film we can also see Michael singing some of his old songs and new songs, we can see also how they’ve done the lighting, the stage, the animation, the dances, the digital pictures and many things, it is so amazing and great, they want it so different only for Michael.

The way his dress would be in the concert is also featured, the lay out of it and the sequences. All his crews, dancers and back up singers are given time to comment and talk in the film, how and what they feel about the concert and what they can say about working with Michael.

He is still a great performer, singer and dancer despite his age. I like his songs very much especially the ‘Heal the World’, ‘Ben’, ‘Earth Song’ and ‘We are World’, it touches me very much.

Farewell our beloved greatest artist, singer and performer. Your memories will never fade. You will still touch our lives and you will be in our hearts forever.

We love you.

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Hello everybody. How’s life going? Well for me here in Oslo, Norway, just fine but still cold and freezing…hehehe. Soon snow will fall, I don’t want to imagine myself walking in the snow, you know why? Brrrrr…i will freeze to death! It’s just a month and 10 days since I came here and of course my body will not adapt that so easyly.

Now the place is very cold and I can see ice on the grass but it’s not snow yet. The temperature is going down, around 5pm its -0 degree. Brrrr…I don’t want to go out anymore, after I came from school i just want to stay inside and turn on the heater’s temperature so high. Funny thing is I still want to walk and walk in town after school and look for cheaper shop i could find even if it’s freezing outside.

Well you can see what I’m wearing. Three clothes plus one thick coat, gloves, hat, and thick scarf.

Tonight we will watch the movie ‘This Is It’ by Michael Jackson, we don’t want to watch it yesterday because it’s the first day of releasing the movie and we are sure the cinema is full, also tomorrow and until Sunday, but I hope tonight we will not be rushing with people.

Well I will just tell you what is it really about, I’m also curious and excited about the movie, who is not, right?

See you again.

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Easy tips generate energy, banish aches, help you sleep, make your period less hellish… and give you a sexy skip to your step. Not just for ladies but also for guys.

• To get revved up, lie on your back with your legs staight up. Bringing a fresh hit of oxygen to your brain to revive you.

• Maintain a bright white smile by avoiding sodas and iced teas made with citric, malic, and tartaric acids, since these additives erode enamel.

• Coat your lips with gloss that contains an SPF of at least 15. gloss slick sheen acts like a magnifying glass for UV rays, intensifying the damage they can do. 

• Avoid computer-induced eye strain with this exercise. Every few hours, look away from your monitor and slowly roll your eyes up and down. Repeat three times, then roll your eyes three times side to side.

• Sweeten your breath by munching on apples, carrots, or cucumbers. Like a toothbrush, these abrasive foods scrape away foul-smelling bacteria.

• Become more gregarious by placing flowers next to your bed or your desk. Lilies, roses, and other fragrant stems affect brain chemistry and can make you feel out going.

• When staying at a guys place for the first time, gargle with toothpaste or use your finger as a toothbrush rather than brushing with his. Toothbrush bristles can transmit diseases, including HPV, hepatitis A, B, and C, syphilis, and herpes.

• Check your finger nails every month to gain insight into your health. Brittleness can indicate an iron or protien deficiency, yellow nails suggest low circulation, and pale nail beds point to anemia.

• If you’re prone to pimples, fill your plate with salmon, walnuts, edamame, and canola oil, four foods packed with fatty acids that fight inflammation and keep skin glands from becoming overstimulated.

• If you’re too wired to sleep, try a few belly breaths. Place one hand on your stomach, and inhale for six seconds. Hold for three counts, then exhale slowly. Repeat six ti eight times. This simple move slows your heart rate and reduces levels of stress hormones.

• Boost your metabolism by eating almonds. They contain compound that helps you torch calories.

• Keep hair healthy by generally sporting loose styles. Always twisting strands into tight ponytails, braids, or extensions might trigger traction alopecia, an irreversable form of hair loss caused by breakage.

• When you shave, use one razor for your armpits and legs, and another for your bikini area. Doctors are inreasingly seeing staph infections along a woman’s private parts, which may be because germs that live harmlessly in your pits or on your legs get transferred via a razor to your pubes, where they become dangerous and can enter your bloodstream.

• Wine contains a disease-fighting antioxidant called resveratrol, and wines with the highest amount of it are grown in cool, rainy regions, such as muscadine from France and the fruit wines from Baguio, Philippines. Choose one of these and you’ll reap more health benifits than if you sipped wine from warm, drier regions.

• Avoid painful calf cramps by drinking a few extra glasses of water a day. Dehydration is a common cause of the cramping.

• When your feet are hurting after a night in your four-inch stilettos, reduce muscle tension quickly by sitting in a chair and crossing your legs, then writing the alphabet with each foot in the lowercase then uppercase letters.

• Keep the volume on your iPod at about the same noise level as normal conversation. Because the earbuds deliver sound into your ear, the decibel level intensified, potentially damaging your hearing over time.

• Feel happier and calm your stressful day by singing and listening to your favorite tune. Doing so boosts levels of the bonding hormone oxytocin.

• Fit into your skinny jeans by eating potassium-rich foods, such as bananas and avocados. Potassium helps flush out excess fluids from your body.

• Irregular or no-show periods may mean that you need to ease your packed schedule. Working too much and sleeping too little throws off your cycle.

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I will share a true story, based from what I have gathered from the person involved. I had met personally this Filipina that is the main character in this story. Read carefully and understand.

Here’s how it began.

At the age of 29 she is still single, working very hard as a Domestic helper in Hongkong. Being a helper in Hongkong is a very hard work, or I may say wherever you go, if your a helper it’s really hard. Working full time in a house is very hard. If you’re staying with your employer, as long as you are not sleeping you have to serve them. Unfortunately to those helper who have a very hard employer, they can’t get food, no extra time, no extra pay, no sleep, no weekend off work, most especially they are abused.

Well luckily it doesn’t happen to Cindy. But of course she worked hard for her employer, she spent two years in Hongkong. Then she went back to the Philippines when she finished her contract. Staying in the Philippines is very hard if you don’t have a job. It’s not a kind of good for Cindy. She must have a job, or else they will starve and her body is not used if she doesn’t have work.

Decided, she went to an Internet Caffee, she searched for a job, then she found one, as an Au pair in London. It’s a good opportunity she said to herself. She contacted the family and they arranged everything. Time to fly, but it’s a kind of tough flight, she have to stop over to some country before London. Well, nothing is tough or rough if it will be a good opportunity to travel in UK and Europe.

She arrive the destination safely, her host family is waiting for her at the Airport, her job is to take care of the not so old man, and the house where he lived in. It’s quite good job and not so hard work for her.

Time passed by, she liked her job and not to mention that she is having a hidden relationship with her employer, well they are living together in the same house and the old man is alone. Her life is kind of good compared before, of course supported by her employer aside from the salary that shes gaining. But she can’t marry an old man she said.

Thinking that she will be living in three months time, she is prepared to go home. But unfortunately, she get pregnant, what a tragic. You are having sex, even if its old it can possibly make you pregnant, not thinking of that consequences, she’s shattered.

She told the old man, but he is too old to take responsibility, so they must think of a solution. In two months time she will go back home. What can they possibly do to solve the problem? It’s a very big problem.

The old man think of a possible solution. His son. She will seduced his son, the old man said. His son is divorced and has three children.

So the plan must implemented very quickly. They began to do it. The old man invited his son for a dinner and told him that he must visit him very often because he is too old to travel and visit his son and children. Not knowing the plan that the two had build, he agreed.

He often visit his father and Cindy is trying to seduce him. They dated many times. The end of their plan is coming, he seems to like Cindy and they began to have sex. Everything seems to be ok now they thought. After having sex for many times, after a month she told her that she’s pregnant. He is surprised but not shocked because he knows that it will happen as they don’t use any contraceptive. She also told him that she’s soon going back to the Philippines. So he decided that she must live with him in his own house and tell the authority that she is bearing his child, so she can stay longer. In the law one foreigner is authorized to live longer if she’s pregnant and the father will claim that it’s his child.

At last the plan had succeed. She lived with the son now. But after two months, he found out that it’s not his child, and the truth shocked him, his father is the father of the baby. What a life?!

His father explained everything, knowing that it’s also his own blood, he accepted the fact that it’s his not his child.

Now Cindy’s womb is in 6 months way, she’s still living with the son, and the father is still supporting her and the baby. Well, at least the baby saved her from going back home.

What can you say? What a life isn’t it? It’s just one of the story of a fact of life.

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The Male Non-Negotiable

• “Trust is a topmost factor in a relationship, I was going out with someone I really liked before, but she already had a boyfriend. It didn’t bother me at first that she had to keep lying to her boyfriend whenever we were together – until I found out that she was doing the same thing to me. That was the real deal breaker. She turned out to be someone I would have a hard tie loving because I couldn’t trust her.” – Eric 27, restaurant manager

• “I had an ex-girlfriend who had a very tough time making her mind up about anything. And if she did decide on something, she would often change her mind at the most annoying of times. Even if she didn’t particularly enjoy the idea of something she’d say’ up to you,’ keep it to herself, and act sullen after, leaving me to wonder why. It quickly got quite frustrating. Everything would have been fine if she had only been a bit more decisive about things and more vocal with her opinions. For me, saying what’s on your mind is definitely better.” – Troy 27, accountant

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• “Be open minded, understanding, and don’t make up stories based on your jealous frenzy. I once had an ex who would immediately suspect that I was flirting with a girl just because I was having a good conversation with her. Her baseless suspicions made me feel unnecessarily insecure whenever a girl talked to me. In the end, I couldn’t stand her pretty jealousy, so I broke up with her.” – Jack 32, executive manager

• “Long distance relationships are usually painful and upsetting, but sometimes a few guys come along that are actually willing to wait. Not all guys are dumb and insensitive. Remember that and maybe you’ll learn to give someone decent a fair chance next time.” – Eddie 30, research analyst

• “Some girls are so possessive and jealous. Give your guys some space and leave us alone once in awhile! We’ll end up coming back to you more often than you’d think.” – Robbie 28, IT analyst

Braving the Breakup

• “For goodness’s sake, don’t break up with a guy through text or email! Have the maturity and decency to break up with him face to face.” – Cholo 26, law student

• “When guys bail, we often have doubts about it. But let us deal with it on our own. We’ll beg you back when we finally realize we’ve lost you for real. That time, we’ll be so into the chase all over again.” – Robert 28, artist

• “When relationships are cut, they should be cut cleanly. There’s no use in going back to your ex to find what went wrong. A person has to find that out for his or her own self. Allot time to heal and do some self-reflection.” – Froilan 29, nurse

• “I’m not supposed to spill this out, but really, the best way to get back at someone who broke your heart is to be fine without him. When the girl we broke up with seems super fine, it affects our ego and we think,’Aba! Why in the world is she okay without me?” – Devy 30, chef

• “Don’t stay with your boyfriend just because you’re afraid to hurt him. If the feeling’s no longer there or you’re beginning to think about other guys, end your relationship right away. Be fair to your clueless boyfriend and to yourself..” – Albert 23, student

• “Even if we did the breaking up, we still second guess our decision. When you start begging us to stay. Our decision to leave just becomes more justified.” – Jerry 27, computer technologist

- “Do women really have to raise their voices to get their points across? Contrary to popular belief, men do listen and they’re easy to talk to – as long as they’re not being yelled at. Otherwise, they tune out.” – Hans, 28, artist

- “My ex-girlfriend would shower me with kisses whenever I got upset with her. It usually worked and my heart would soften. But because we never really talked about our issues and only resolved them physically, our communication wasn’t open and issues kept resurfacing because there was no proper discussion.” – Richard, 32, manager

-“Stop whining, nagging, screaming, and complaining about everything because it’s really irritating when a girl does these things if a girl has something on her mind, she should talk to her boyfriend nicely. Guys don’t like to fight. I would have preferred it if my ex appreciated all the things that I did for her instead of having complained all the time.” – Dennis, 30, businessman

Syncing up in the sack

-“I dated a single mom who was five years older than me and had three kids. In bed, we never had more than one round lovemaking. When she was satisfied, that was it. After two years she told me she didn’t have the energy for sex anymore and suggested I find a younger woman. I did – much to her regret.” – Francis, 27, singer

-“If you expect your boyfriend to go down you, please wash up first. Also, a little trimming wouldn’t hurt.” – Trevor, 28, racer

-“Be a bit more assertive in bed. If your lover isn’t performing up to par, tell him how he can improve. Be specific and don’t be shy. Don’t be afraid to hurt his ego. In the end, if he sees you’re enjoying, that’s a big ego boost for him. Encourage him tot el you also how you can be a better lover.” – Ben, 26, marketing manager

Matching your fundamentals

-“I’m a very family-oriented guy. I need a girl who understands that I will always be involved with my family. Sometimes I’ll need to drop a prior engagement with my girl to attend to family matters and an old girlfriend couldn’t understand that. She ended up feeling neglected and alone but didn’t know what else to do. As far as I knew, blood was thicker than water.” – Markus, 34, restaurateur

-“You know how people say that you’re supposed to be able to depend on each other? Well, there’s such a thing as being too dependent…” – Larry, 29, IT engineer

-“My ex-girlfriend had halitosis and it really put me off, but I couldn’t tell her. There were times she’d want to cuddle, like when we were watching a movie, and it killed me because her breath just smelled too much like spoiled saliva. When my own mother noticed her bad breath, I thought it was time to break it off. I wanted a girl whom I could proudly show off and be with, not one who repelled me – and my family and friends – physically.” – Garry, 33, teacher

You need not wish an ex-boyfriend ill. Instead, make better use of your time and emotions by taking advantage of bitter breakups and dude dramas – and coming out the truly better half.

It didn’t work out. Now what? Whether your boyfriend ducked out or you called it quits, truth is, you can learn a thing or two from each failed relationship. Ultimately, it’s you – because you have full control over how your next relationship can be better. Here, we help you pick up self-improvement cues from your ex-boyfriend’s raves and rants. Listen closely and learn how to makeover your girlfriend style and ready yourself for Mr. Next.

What Makes You Girlfriend Material

- “Having ambition and goals is a big turn-on for guys. Men may base their first impressions on women’s looks or sense of humor, but we really do looks for hints as to how a woman’s personality will pan out in the long run. Will she be dependable, or will she just drag a man down?” – Sandy, 32, manager

- “A girl should go out with someone who’s more like her. I think my ex was a bit too aggressive and neurotic for me while I was laidback and lazy. We both tried to compromise by becoming more like the other person. That led a lot of tension and unneeded resentment.” – Nathan, 27, call center agent

- “Pretty girls are used to being chased by guys. So when they get into a serious relationship, they forget that they have to sacrifice all the fun flirtations of the single life. If one man adoring her isn’t enough, then she should just stay single.” – Teddy, 22, student

- “Many girls take nice guys for granted. And when the jerks they end up with start breaking their hearts, they wonder what happened! Those girls should screw their heads on straight and see that nice guys are here to stay – for the long haul!” – Francis, 30, Engineer

- “Though the sweet, mahinhin type is appealing for many guys, we don’t particularly want to have a partner who’s as meek as a worm (read: no backbone). On a first date, girls should tell guys where they’d like to go or what they’d like to eat, and be open to their date’s suggestions as well. Guys like girls who are confident, but not too bossy.” – Patrick, 26, executive manager

Managing Relationship Expectations

- “My ex would get infuriated with me whenever I forgot to text her, ‘Good night. I love you’ before going to bed. If I didn’t text her, I would wake up with at least 10 text messages in my mobile phone – all from her, telling me what an inconsiderate ass I was. The issue got really old very quickly and I couldn’t stand her insecurity anymore, so I dumped her.” – Mel, 33, accountant

- “I like a woman who has no problem with ‘guy time.’ My friends will always be a part of my life. A woman can’t replace then and she certainly can’t make me choose between her and them.” – Paulo, 27, teacher

- “I can’t stand it when girls get so clingy. They start whining about being alone and hopeless without me at their beck and call all day long. My ex-girlfriend used to do that and I ended up leaving her because she just didn’t understand. I have my own life and if a girl can’t handle that, then we aren’t meant.” – Dan, 29, banker

-“My ex had a split Jekyll and Hyde personality when it came to showing affection. She was the sweetest, most loving girl who would shower me with kisses and give me tight embraces – but only when we were alone. In public, she was as stiff and cold as a corpse. I would simply hold her hand and she would reject me. I didn’t like the fact that I couldn’t show to the world how much I adore my girl. It eventually turned me off.” – Randy, 30, graphic artist

There are still more coming’ up, stick with me and you will surely know everything that man’s thinking about their girlfriends. I’m sure you will get a lot of tips from them on how to be the best girlfriend ever, win and melt their hearts. See you.